Tuesday, August 02, 2016

Tidy Today

I am working my way through a book on tidying , since my life and possessions are greatly hampered by untidiness.
Today's lesson was a necessity of envisioning the end results , dreaming if you will, but as a motivation and as a mechanism for making decisions.
In retrospect, this seems obvious as so many things do. It was less obvious before. What do I want my home to be? I wanted to be a comfortable place where I can bring friends. That means it needs to be clean, and therefore easy to keep clean, and therefore sparsely furnished.
This is a challenge for me because I was born poor and raised for, and therefore it is difficult to rid myself of anything because when you are bored, everything is valuable. You never know when you'll need that piece of lumber. I am especially insecure right now because I need to refinance my home within a year, and therefore I need to maximize my income. However I now realize that my untidiness is more of a barrier than its fruits are an asset.
This makes it much easier to pass things on, since they are not losses, but rather advances toward my dream.
It is still hard shaking the necessary habits of a lifetime, but that makes the dream all the more important.

Monday, August 01, 2016

Up And Down Monday

This morning I reviewed a message from my friend Mary who is still getting screwed over by VA. I can't help directly due to my government job, but I can do advocacy. I wrote a letter to that end, and we'll see.
My former client Brown called about the EAJA matter; I connected with the new guy and shared case progress. Again, I can't represent anybody but I can network.
This evening I saw that I got Kris' Tribal Check. She asked me to meet her at the usual place. I agreed. Later she said she'd been delayed and would be late. I said fine. At last - just as the elves had delivered another fine dinner - I got the message Kris was ready to meet me. So I put dinner aside and drove over. She owes my money for the YWCA - two months now - and also for one of the cat's treatments.
At the usual place she offered to buy me a growler of beer and I declined. I just don't drink that much anymore. She took the check and said she had to go. I asked about the money she owed me. She played stupid, or perhaps it wasn't playing, and got angry. She makes plenty of money but she doesn't have enough to pay the Y to which she brings her boyfriend to show me - what' that about? No ordinary man would have brought her the check but I suppose I have a nobility that she will not understand.
Kris said she really had to go. I asked about the cat care. She asked what flea treatment I preferred and I explained once again that I left that up to Nessa because it was her field.  It seems that Kris was willing to pay more to control the situation rather than just hand over money - I should have appreciated that so I could deal with it. Eventually she just stomped off muttering that she would just pay for the Y on her own and I said that was fine but she still owed me for two months.
I'm not going to count on ever seeing that again.
Perhaps I'm make friends with her boy at the Y - that would be fun and I don't blame him for her abuse.
I certainly won't have another day like today!

To Build It You Must Dream It

I am working my way through a book on tidying , since my life and possessions are greatly hampered by untidiness. 
 Today's lesson was a necessity of envisioning the end results , dreaming if you will, but as a motivation and as a mechanism for making decisions. In retrospect, this seems obvious as so many things do. It was less obvious before. 
What do I want my home to be? I wanted to be a comfortable place where I can bring friends. That means it needs to be clean, and therefore easy to keep clean, and therefore sparsely furnished. 
This is a challenge for me because I was born poor and raised for, and therefore it is difficult to rid myself of anything because when you are bored, everything is valuable. You never know when you'll need that piece of lumber. I am especially insecure right now because I need to refinance my home within a year, and therefore I need to maximize my income. 
However I now realize that my untidiness is more of a barrier than its fruits are an asset. This makes it much easier to pass things on, since they are not losses, but rather advances toward my dream. 
It is still hard shaking the necessary habits of a lifetime, but that makes the dream all the more important.

Wednesday, July 27, 2016

Two For

I stopped by the Highland Park Improvement Club to attend a meeting about developing community, lead by the Center for Ethical Leadership www.ethicalleadership.org. I left early to pick up Nessa from work. I took a couple of plants over to the new store on Henderson where the other day I'd chatted with a lady preparing a garden out front. All in all, a friendly and low stress evening. I missed the convention coverage but it sounded great.

Monday, July 25, 2016

Level 61

This weekend was my 61st birthday, or as I like to think, the weekend I reach level 61.
I celebrated by stopping by a bank and starting the process of figuring out how to refinance my home. It will be a long process but now that I have started I am going to find the process fun.
Kiara and Nessa made me a very nice dinner, first asking me what my favorite thing was and of course I said, nicely grilled steak. They did a wonderful job.
Dan stopped by and gave me a nice bottle of wine and talked for an hour.
Barre class was delightful as usual and I noticed that the weights are lighter semicolon I am still not fond of planks but I could not go the full 3 minutes without distress.
I delivered books to the VA twice - a full load on Saturday, and then since I had some on Sunday I stop by and discovered that there was room for 3 boxes on the shelves already LOL. This means I took a quick walk in the garden twice, which was very nice.
I practiced breathing and stopped by Pegasus which I always enjoy.
I pick my huckleberries and got more than a quart They don't seem very flavorful but they'll make a nice sauce or go into smoothies.
The cats were affectionate or demanding, as you wish.
I had a bit of fun with the bookselling. The coach for "Mahomet Seymour HS boys Cross County in Illinois" wrote and asked if they could get a discount on a particular book about cross country, because their program was short on funds. At first I reflexively started negotiating, trying to make a sale by giving up some profit. Then I realized "What Am I Doing?" - if they had asked for a donation I'd have given them some money but this was even better. So I dropped the price to the fees Amazon would charge me, they ordered the book and thanked me and told me how its author had inspired the team, and I feel great! Also I got to tell them that I had run cross country for St. Ed's - the price of talking with older people is that you have to hear our stories haha! And now I have a cross country team in Illinois to cheer on - so it's all good.
After barre I gave Kris her ballot which still comes to my home, and she thanked me by declining to pay her share of Y expenses. This helped me come to the realization that she will never be anything but a deadbeat and I need to accept that, severing that final minor connection. It is to the minor financial advantage of us both, but she's just taking advantage of me and it is a stressor to have dun her into paying her share. It is helpful that she styles herself in so homely a way. I miss the companionship.
I am looking forward to the refinance and more time at the Y, both of which make me happy - as well as the kindness of my dear housemates and the many birthday wishes of my Facebooks friends and family!

Monday, June 27, 2016

It's Getting To Be A Lot Less Kris Mass....

...it occurred to me on the bus into work this morning that I had seen Kris at barre and felt no impulse to greet her. She may not have seen me as I was at the other end of the room.
I am sad of course but letting go the weight is a liberation. I suppose.

Sunday, June 26, 2016

I Am A Cat Toy

Saturday was a great day. The cats woke me up and demanded I feed them or play with them. They'd been successful at getting overfed by begging both floors, so a while back we agreed that they'd be fed only downstairs. That means I have to play with them in the morning, which is not a problem, but it does make me basically a cat toy.
They have balls and things to bat around, but mostly they want me to dangle a shoelace.
The 8:15 Barre class was great, as usual. It's weird how many reps with light weights or no weights can have such results.
I shipped a case of books, and met some DAV buddies for coffee, and then sources at the little thrift store nearby. Then it was off to the VA Hospital to distribute books. My reward for that is to walk in the garden a little bit.
This weekend the ladies are hanging with their friends at Pride Week events, with the parade tomorrow and all. I'm enjoying the house and catching up on chores. It's domestic but fun!

Wednesday, June 22, 2016

Sit-In Wednesday

I'm impressed that the Democrats in Congress are staging a sit-in to demand a vote on the simplest, most common-sense gun control laws.

Tuesday, June 21, 2016

Tuesday Thoughts Waiting For The Bus

0% Precipitation
On The Leaves
It may be that, as Ben Franklin wrote, "Early to bed and early to rise, makes a man Healthy, Wealthy and Wise".
In my experience, there must be more to the formula than that, but I don't know what.
 Well, at least I'm healthy!

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